Your smile was so sweetly swiped

            Right across you bearded face

Your dark eyes also grinning at me

            As you looked up at me from the drive

You weren’t as tall as I expected

            But you were just as sweet as I had experienced

It was late when you got here, we were both tired

We agreed on a movie, I cuddled into your chest

You smelled so nice, and your touch so comforting

You couldn’t tell but my heartbeat and breath quickened

After the movie, we went to bed

Snuggled close, our bodies intertwined

Kisses shared and caresses dared

            Going further than we’d intended

           

In the morning, we laid there

Nowhere to be, no cares to be had

Head on your chest, and hands playing with curly hair

            Soft kisses and sweet smiles shared

After we got up, you started to work

I lounged on the couch, watching you

You had no idea how hot it was

            Watching you be so productive and focused

So charming, the way you pecked at the keyboard

The way you leaned back in the chair, eyebrows scrunched thoughtfully

I missed you today and yesterday,
I'll probably miss you the next.
And when I miss you the most, my dear,
I remember: you are in my heart like the rest.
The rest of broken things,
In a place I won't forget.
All the smiles you brought to me,
All the time together spent.
And I hope that you thought of me,
As one so fragile I am.
For if I knew you did not care for me,
My heart, my mind would regret.

do you want
to give me more
will you hold back
shutting the door
i don't want it all
all at once
i only ask for more
time  and affirming words
remind me how you feel
a day or two a week
you touch me but
i need your voice
share your thoughts
your worries and such
God only knows
i'm not asking much

we sat there in your van
running fingertips over bare skin
you kissed my head
it rested gently on your chest
words unspoken
peace and happiness shared

i gazed up at your face
you were smiling down at me
i rubbed your chin
breaking the silence
"i don't want you to leave me"
your expression changed

i want to be happy

   i truly do

but when i close my eyes

   all i can see is you

i see your beautiful eyes

   and your silly, silly grin

i see your crooked nose

   and the scruffy hair upon your chin

if my mind is running

   and my brain begins to spin

i can feel and smell you

   sweetly upon my skin

then memories they flood me

   the whispers, kisses, and such

causing sadness to drowned me 

   in an all consuming rush

you laid your head
    against my chest
Slid your arms
    around my waste

Squeezed your eyes tightly shut
     exhaled a sigh of relief
I felt the events of your day
     dissipate as you cuddled into me

jason

forget you-

the way you made excuses

your deceitful words

the false hope you gave

you stole my heart and stomped it

what a waste-

my first kiss with you

praying you're heart would be softened

sleepless nights

countless tears

foolish- 

of me to think you loved me

to hope you'll contact

for knowing i'd take you back

to lie and say i wouldn't